So maybe I am getting too much sleep because my dreams keep getting weirder. I dreamt last night that my voice teacher gave me a “d” and that I started shouting and cursing really loudly at her saying how it was unfair and that i had worked really hard, blah, blah blah.
And apparently I had registered for an apologetics class, never once went to class until the final and I got a B in the class. How that works, only dreams can know.
Why is it that when I am busy I can think of all the things I could be doing if I were not busy and then once I am not busy can remember none of the things I had thought I could be doing when I was busy?! When I busy and stressed out I think to myself, oh if I didn’t have all this homework I could be doing such and such, but then once I have no homework I find myself utterly bored and unable to think coherently. For example, right now I am sitting in the ARC by myself and can’t think of anything else that I could be doing. I am typing something utterly random that makes no sense whatsoever. I’m actually not thinking about what I am typing. I think I heard someone scream outside. I hope they are not dead. Jocelyn’s belt looks weird and I have to go to the bathroom. Jocelyn just threw a pen at me. Andrew wants to be jocelyn’s minion. How strange this is. She had a chance he says. Corinne wishes she was doing something so much more useful than typing this. She’s quite disappointed that things are not going as planned with the white monkey clan. She almost feels like a groupie because she’s not exactly a part of the clan. This is lame. I want Jocelyn to stop spinning on the chair. Its making me sick. I still have to go to the bathroom. But im just sitting here typing away… I just yawned. The next three weeks are going to be pretty boring. I have no friends in the bay area so it kinda sucks. I miss my home in bend. So Jocelyn and Andrew just left me here in the ARC and I’m feeling very neglected. I think what my main problem is that I let my hopes and ideas run wild and then when they do not work out, I get disappointed. Its dumb I know. .
