April 21, 2008
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May 3-19: Choir Tour
*read That Hideous Strength
May 20-June 28: Home in Pleasant Hill and Bend Oregon
*practice cooking skills
*read Ethics by Dietrich Bonhoeffer
*read Miracles and the Screwtape letters
*read Confessions by St. Augustine
*read the book of James
*music stuff (whatever that may consist of)
*write some of QOTG
July 1-21: ISP Thailand
*read the Fellowship of the Ring
*journaling
July 27-August 2: Mount Hermon
*music stuff
*read The Two Towers
August 7-August?: Bend Oregon
*Read The Return of the King
*practice cooking skills
August 25-28: CBU for Carrie Jo’s Birthday and Move in Some Stuff
*friend fellowship=yay!
August 29-September 1: Home for Scottish Games
September 3: School Starts
April 21, 2008
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I will miss my friends dearly, but I think the summer will be a good time to clear my head, get me thinking the way I need to be thinking. I will miss the fun and randomness, but I am glad that I will get to do some reading and cooking, and going to Thailand- missions! I can honestly say that I am in no way prepared for this mission trip. I have no idea what to expect really and I don’t know how I’m going to witness. Pray and support are going to be what I lean on most.
April 15, 2008
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I need to start being a better steward of my money. I have gotten into the habit lately, of flippantly spending money, because I have had a nice amount for awhile, but being that I am not working this summer (due to various trips and things), I need to start saving so that I can still pay my cell phone, credit card, and soon to be storage unit bill. So hopefully, my FRIENDS can help me in this area.
April 14, 2008
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My heart seems to have finally been freed from Mr. Q. I’m happy, yet slightly sad at the same time. I’m sad because my heart was tied so long, even though there was no sign that he reciprocated. I was angry and my heart was greatly burdened. I spent so much time… but alas, I must forget these things and press forward to wherever God has me go.
April 10, 2008
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Over the past few weeks God has really been convicting my heart. I had been blinded once again by things I thought I wanted, things I believed to be true, and things I hoped would work out the way I thought I wanted them to.
Even while praying, “God if this is not your will…,” I didn’t expect to be taken in the direction that I have been going. I expected a much different answered than the one I actually received.
And through all this I have begun to see that I have been neglecting the woman God is calling me to be. I’d been so focused on what I wanted in a man, and what I wanted for my career, that I left behind the person God is trying to mold into “the image of Christ.”
This realization has brought forth both disillusionment and hopefulness. I’m disillusioned in that I’m frustrated with the way I have been thinking and doing things and I don’t necessarily know what to do differently now, but I also have hope because I know God can do a good work in me, and He has given me this wisdom to be able to see the problem.
I know it will take time. But God my strength and my guide. Wherever He may lead me, I know it will be for the best, even if it seems like the completely wrong thing at the time.
To answer the title question: Who does God want me to be? He wants me to be a woman of God. What does that entail? A humble and gentle spirit; a sacrifical and loving heart. Oh there are lots more; I would love to list all the ones I know on this blog, but that would take up a lot of space.
