I have been trying-at least I think I am, and you’d think that by having a boyfriend that I love, I’d be over him, but even though I don’t have feelings for him anymore, I’m still frustrated. I thought I was fine, was letting all the anger and resentment go, but then to discover that while I had still liked him, he’d asked another girl out. Okay, this was a year ago, sure, but still, to have just learned that, in addition to all the disappointment I had felt before… just made me mad! And I have never talked to him about it…NEVER! I tried to send him an email and I did, but he never responded. He never said anything! I know its just his personality, and I feel like it will never happen, and even if I try to initiate a conversation about it, it’ll be weird. I don’t know what to do about it. I shouldn’t harbor anger and hurt about it. I keep thinking I’ve moved on, and even though I know that I’m over HIM, I’m not over IT. It’s not really his fault that I felt about him the way I did…He didn’t do much to encourage those feelings (maybe a bit in the beginning, but that soon dwindled). I feel like I will never be able to talk to him, and I don’t even know if I want to. But then I wonder, how will I have closure on this? I couldn’t even think about my homework tonight, because I felt so depressed. And it’s stupid. I have a boyfriend, I love him, why should care about some guy that never cared about me? SERIOUSLY…I have issues. I shouldn’t let these past feelings invade my thoughts. I don’t like him anymore, and I don’t even consider him as a friend anymore. I have always acted nice towards him and everything, but yet I still feel like we should have talked…but I know we never will.
